“I had a phone call with my brother like a month or so ago. And, it’s always interesting being the middle child or just having somebody who is ahead of you, but hasn’t been there during your experience. So, I’ve been here these four years trying to live up to some sort of example he left behind. I didn’t even realize what his example really was and it was an extra limitation I was placing on myself that wasn’t really necessary. And, we had this conversation where he just kind of said that I am at a point where I just need to be happy. Like, I have months left and at this point college applications are in, all that important stuff – it’s kind of over. All that’s left for me is to find some happiness. I think he knew that because it has been a difficult high school experience for me – I think it has been for everyone, in their own way. It truly is just a matter of surviving at some points. And yeah, he just talked to me for 45 minutes telling me, ‘You need to find your happiness. What does that look like for you?’ And I don’t think I’ve ever really thought about that in depth and in focus before. That was really nice. And it’s tricky because I wouldn’t really put that at the forefront of my mind. Every now and then when I take a break, when I’m feeling so tired, I realize that this is a time for me to just be. . . happy. How can I change who I am, my life, what I am? And make that my goal, because it should be my goal.”