Your smile always caught me

I believed in it

The happiness lit up

In the corners of your mouth

And in the irises of your eyes

When we played cards with your friends

I saw for the first time

You letting loose

Letting the giddiness take over

And laughs fill the minutes

But that night when we sat in your car

I really saw for the first time

That you weren’t okay

You’re not good

You’re not fine

Now, when I look into your eyes

I see a film over them

A film of happiness

An illusion that you let be

Transparent to me

I know you love me

From the way you act, but

Please let me in

And help you so

You can truly be yourself again